Happie 2010!

2009 was a year of transformations
my thinking habits and life changed
i feel tad mostly all were for the better
but ultimately there's still one relation i wish to start all over with
the last day of the 2009
i believe on the surface
it was a really bad ending
but tinkin deeper
it might have been heaven's plan to let everyone's displeasure
one shot on the last day, let go.
so today will be the fresh New Beginning of my Life
i will fulfil my 5 year plan and get the hell outta here
woo hoo!
wish me luck ppl:)
and oh ya

HAPPY NEW YEAR:)

wonderful party!

had this really really cool and relaxin party at sam's for this year's xmas:)
i love my peeps from 05-09
its incredible how friendship are formed
some ppl u can know them for like 5 or 10 years
but they're nv close to u
while some others, u may only know them for like 5, 6 months
and we are like family
i tink this is called fate
~*~
the party was really warm and nice
i absolutely adore this drink called 'mulled drink'
i cant really rmb how to spell it (lol)
but accordingly to sam
its a european drink
its a pre brewed drink u can buy at the german supermart
and all u have to do is warm it up slowly
and lata add in orange or lemon or cinnamon sticks (or all:>)
its a really really great drink
i strongly recommend it to all u dears:)
esp on a cold and wet day
and carmen bought this wine
which contains only 5.5% alcohol
lol, eve joys and I really enjoyed it
but i guess it was too sweet for my elder girls:P
and on a note: nv drink on an empty stomach
the consequences were bad
i went to the ladies twice!(Pffft)
and ya, i totally forgot sam had cats
so i guess i got a shock
esp the black one *shudders*
Sam's was really cool
it gave me a feel of a warm fuzzy european household
adoreed the food too!
fell in love with Linda's potato salad
and the Ham!
the sandwiches were mouth watering!
i bought this stick wafers in which everyone esle said it was nice but i din noe cos i din get to eat it
lol
nvm:) i'll go get it again:) (great excuse to go food shoppin!)
on another note: i gotta rmb to get the recipes for the salad as well as janet's dumplin:>
and ya the name of the wine
lol*winks
and i gt a bunny phone holder for the gift exchange:)
im too lazy to get a foto for it
maybe some other time:)
~*~
im gonna try my very best to fight for the chance to go on the KL trip with my dears
wish me luck!(for a job too)

~*~
sometimes, wen things occurs ever so repeatedly
i tink its best to jus
let it go.
no matter wad happens my dear(u'll noe who u are,ya?)
we will always be there for ya.
lov ya always.

shoppin shoppin shoppin

lol, this entire week is a crazy week
finals on mon
shoppin @bugis with my ICG peeps on tues
today jus had a lovely time with pinky and jam:)
hadnt had a oppurtunity to meet jam in like months!
haiz, cheerup love, things will always work out by itself in the end:)
im lookin forward to spending xmas eve with my beloved minzy and yt
i wanna watch chipmunks!!!
i wanna see theodore in HUGE screens!
anybody can give me a live theodore i'll do anything for ya!
hahaha...
i love xmas this year!
bought SOOO many stuffs
i'll load the pics lata
im gg watch shows now so tata!

Russell dearie:) welcome to my humble abode:)

the stupid exam is finally over!!!

now thats wad i cal true freedom:)

and the best part?

i got my Christmas gift from my sis!

its ....

TA-DAH!

the new addition to my sleepmates:)

i named him russell:)

dun ask me why, but i felt the name was so suitable

haha:)

he's so CUTE!

i got other christmas gifts as well

will load pics of them another time:):)

im so lookin forward to shoppin tmr with my peeps!

so ciao~

有d娘亲整日都以为自己

是最懂得为自己子女安排最好条路,

但是其实,

她们本身先自是自己子女

最大个半脚石.

Love like you've never been hurt

by Alfred D.Suja

dance like no one's watching

love like you've never been hurt

sing like nobody's listening

work like you dont need money

live like you're in heaven on earth

assume today is the last day

from: KimSamSoon

what happens when both parties are ur frens?
whose side do u take?
how do u remain neutral?

sighs
things jus gt so complicated...

i hate the feeling of enviousness

haiz...
i cant believe the sku really did the ultimatum
rama wants to extend the duration
and bloody fuck
i have aledi confirm my cruise trip
i will not give up my trip there
i will simply tak the stupid tests( which will be super redundant anyway)
on the 21st instead
sian to the max
now i have to meet pinky on the 23 instead
damn damn damn
i dislike the sku so much
and for the first time in my life
i regret takin up the dip
seriously
its so much wasted time
i cld hav continued my biz
now i hardly gt time for it
fuck
hate it

Bony Efendy is such a despicable scum
wads his fucking prob
he shld jus go ahead and get the sex change done
seriously, im considering ways to put him out of teaching the dip
he devalues the prog
he maybe Smart
but his comes with a Capital S
and he's got ZERO EQ.

FUCK.
the trip's cancelled
and Rama bloody hell dun even have the guts to make a proper announcement to the class abt it
and bony is seriously behavin as if he is Rama's pet dog
arrrgh.
this entire diploma affair DISGUSTS me.

is it jus a coincidence?

is it simply jus a coindence?
each time i get online
the nex second, u get offline
its almost immediate
ok it has only happen twice
but something tells me
somethings gg on
so here's the thing,
if U ( u shld know who u r) are reading this
i have decided to stick to jus friendship with u
i have decided to put down those feelings for u
so please, stop the nonsense
we are jus frens
i seriously do not wish to lose the friendship
so pls, awaken to that fact and jus behave normal
jus like b4.


shit. feeling damn pissed at such a behaviour
is that why bio books say girls mature faster then guys?
pffft.
(ps. this is if wads happening is not a coindence.)

freaking DRAINED.
i cant take this anymore.
for the first time in my life
i jus wanna quit.

it hurts to say it out loud: let it go

i am gg to admit
though i did proclaim on fb that i m officially gg to let go of it
it really does hurt to say it out
and now that i know the truth behind those lines
it doesnt matter
he still wun look in my direction
lol, how silly of me
for the next 5 years he also wun be
i m so so so silly
really silly
damn silly
and yet no matter how silly i m
i cant erase the longing immediately
i know its gg to take some time
a long time i think, this time round
until the nex one comes along
.................................... ...........
............

maybe it was a mistake to look at you
maybe we shldnt have known each other at all
then i wldnt feel so horrible and confused now
i decided to let it go already
and yet,
i had to see that scene
u smiled so happily
at her, with her
not me
in the beginning, it was with me
why did i have to see that scene
cos it aroused my jealously
i din expect it
i really din
thads wen i realise
it, was so silly of me to force myself to forget
hw cld i ?
omg, i really shld nt have seen that
why did i constantly find myself lookin in his direction
if i din do that
i prob wldnt have seen it
wld he understand this feelin if he sees this?
sometimes i wish
i were invisible
den i cld get near him to find out the truth
w/o lettng him know
at least i wldnt have to risk our friendship
or let someone else get the answer and i'll jus eavesdrop
sigh.
and what with the upcoming trip
its only 2d1n to genting
my brain tends to worry too much and my heart tends to think too much
i look forward to it
but wad happens next?
wad will happen durin those days?
i duno
i might spill if it gets too much
den i really dunno how things will go


some one. help me. Please.

i wonder at times
if wad our feelings are
is true
do feelings come with a guarantee?
i dun wanna believe in them any longer
they are so misleading at times
and yet so hurtful too
haiz
shld i jus go straight out to get an answer?

today i found out.

HE has someone else in his heart.

ive decided.

i dun wish to fall in love anymore.

ive always been alone

i'll be able to survive this

i know i can.

i am really really curious as to who reads my blog(LOL)
is there any software out there tad tells u that???

things i wanna learn

there's so many things i wanna learn
i wanna enrich my knowledge
some times i think its fortunate im still young
and there's internet now
so everything's gonna be at my fingertips
so here's a list(bet its gonna get longer and longer and longer and longer:)
korean
japanese
french
african
dancing(all sorts except ballet and beginner's girls hip hop, cos i already been thru those)
crochet
embroidery
makeup
professional manicuring
name of every single country and its capital
how the brain works
psychology
beginnings of rome(my fav country at the moment)
how to create chocolate
how to bake a cake( those really shocking ones from japan)
how to record a song
playin gu zhen
piano
harp

hmmm... i tink thads it for Now
lol
there's also so many things i wanna improve on...

sighs, if only....

what ifs.

i finally get the luxury of time to blog again.
the past few days has been one of my most tedious periods in my life
not jus physically but mentally and heart-fully as well
cos my time mgt was really horrible
i had to rush like crazy for the dressses to be up
i'll put up the fotos another time tgt with the designs
firstly, customer YR, was really frus
cos the design to the cloth type she wans i followed exactly wad she wanted
but i did tell her b4 that the colour and design is not suitable for prom at all
and also i did hinted that the colour doesnt suit her at all.
she doenst listen, so wad can i do?
so in the end wen she came to try the dress
all she cld say was that ' like it lacks something'
all of us cld tell the colour doesnt suit her
but wad to do thats wad she wans
i cant forbade my customer wad she wans, can i?
customer J was really good until i had to add extra cloth to hers
cos she put on a lil weight...
and the design was suposed to be a lil out of the ordinary shape
but she said her parents din appreciate the lopsided idea
so she din wear her dress but gt another instead
i was like, its not only a waste of her money, its waste of the dress as well
i mean for the dress to go thru, she has to like the design first right
so i was really taken aback
i decided to refund her 2/3 of the deposit anyway
cos she din wear it to the event
here comes the really heart wrenching part
my mum's behaviour
i know that time was really slippin away
but i hated to be constantly nagged at
it eats away at my ability to work
a lil naggin;s fine cos i deserve it
but so much and so hurtful and to do it in public as well
i really do not tink its fair to me
and the whole time i jus kept quiet at the restuarant
i bet u a million bucks those near cld hear and the servers as well
but i think they can understand my predicament
co wen we were being served, she made a big and loud commotion
over a really small matter
the manager wanted to bring us to this table
but den halfway he realise that its actually for a grp of 6 instead of 4
so he turnard and told us to wait and bring the one behind us to the table instead
i tink he din really tell her properly
and cos of tad
mum tinks she was shortchange
and hence the commotion
i was aledi embarrassed
adn during the dinner she poured it out on me
i so wanted to cry on the spot
but i told myself not to show my inner weakness
esp not in front of her and so many others
so i jus pretended im fine and carried on conv with my sis
it was so painful, so painful that wen ireached home i wanted to cry but realised there's no tears
its so suffocating
den the next day, all of a sudden
she's friendly to me, the trip to m'sia was pretty much enjoyable
i tot perhaps the storm was over
i tot since no matter wad she 's my mum, i can and shld put up with her weird outbursts
but alas, it was nt to be
the outburst frequecies were getting more more concentrated
this time its at a shopin centre
i may spoken a lil too outwardly and in a dishing-out manner
but tads the way its suppose to be with family isnt it?
i dun like to have to be so guarded with how i speak wen i m with family
if i have to be guarded, den why is it still called a family?
den wen we get into the car she suddenly warned me again bout having to finish the dress on time, and den suddenly it link to that she being my mum
she has every right to scold/reprimand me
i din answer her cos i was really frus and angry with her
den she started scolding me for being rude and improper...there's more but i cant rmb
i so wanted to jus go somewhere safe to cry at that pt
and u know wad?
i always tot that even if i gt scolded my dad and sis would understand that most of the time
im not really at fault, im the victim of her stupid outbursts
but this time i was proven wrong
cos wen we reached the next destination, mum gt out of the car first
dad specially stayed in abit jus to tell me this: ah girl, watch wad u say lah, everytime like tad"
i was like i din say anything speacially jus to provoke her leh,
den my sis had to go and say this line: i know wad u said ok.'
i was so so so so so taken aback den
i was shocked.
but i still had to pretend im fine
i carried on gg to shop for a prom bag for her
but all those while, i was SUFFOCATED
i so badly wanted to cry
i refuse to let those tears fall
cos i knew if i cried
its the end for me
i wont be able to stand up properly again
but i really needed to let go a tiny bit of the frus that was eating me
i msg yt , my super friend.
but i stil cldnt give her the full story at all
and i had to hold back tears and act in front of my own family
i have nv felt so ALONE b4
im surrounded by my closest ppl
and yet i still feel so lonely and helpless
suddenly i felt even my dearest one
someone i tot i cld always count on
my sis,
Disappears.
i feel now, that if theres ever a next life,
please give me a fresh family
i still love my family
but thats all
nthing else
lets nt meet again in the next life
please.

cos even now as i type
they are downstairs, cheerful and happy tgt as a one family
cos my sis jus came home from prom
and im like the forgotten one up in the study
ALONE. again

tears pls dun fall
pls pls pls....

pls pls vote for me!:)*lol*

heyy dearies and peeps, ive uploaded the link for the contest:)
im like really late, but pls do support me!

love ya all!:)

and btw: this my 100th post!
lol, paisei sia....jus feel like announcing it:)

today was fabulous!
ultra-ly fabulous
though its like 3 in the morning
my limps are droppin like flies
but i still insist on writing this entry!
lol
today, ohh or shld i say tonight?hahaha
its was the first time in my life
im outside till 2
nv in my life was i so at peace and really really happy
its like i finally get one step closer to my truly growing up
to MY future, not the one my parents planned for me in their minds
the bbq was great, someone turned up unexpectantly
lol, it felt great:)
but to be honest it wasnt as 'exciting' as b4
i wonder if its becos i m aledi puttin the issue down
lol, after all the food and 2 mini freak outs
(tuck soon and his cat thingy, and that mysterious snail!)
the security almost had to literally chase us out of the pit
we all went up to alvin's and ta dah!
let the gambling begin!
i pretty much gt an idea as to how the casino scene wld be
all those pattern the "gamblers' came up with today
omg, i cld laugh to death
i'd love to do it again!
i think the next most appropriate time wld b CNY
hahaha.... im gonna see hw the money 'flows' man!
had my first taste of red wine and sparkling wine too
though the first taste was sap-sap
i found myself a wee bit cravin for more this very instant!
lol, carmen wld be so glad to know this
hahahaha
clebrated janet's bdae at 1 plus ")
she was dashin today
from the min she arrived:):)
i on the other hand looked like a soak auntie
lollol!!!
due to the bbq heat
joyce and i looked like the eldest ones here today
i was pretty full after linda's jap curry and alvin's rice
so joys pretty much did the cookin while i was the official server
omg, i cld laugh to death
and soon's home made garlic bread was superb
the gambling's pretty uch addictive
thank goodenss i was abale to abstain form tryin out the games
otherwise i wld b like the guys, lose until 0
hahha:) at the time i left, the girls were winning:)
way to go girlies!
and,
the best part is
i think i cld be gettin an official extension of curfew
but i wanna test the waters bout 2 more times to confirm first:)

i gtg concentrate on the dressmakin :)
and i cant help but worry for joys's paper
i got to think of ways to help her
but first i got to save myself
im droppin dead soon if i dun slp
so Ciao ppeps!

i just wanna know
wad has happened and wad is gg on.

what wld i say if i had the courage?

..., i din noe, how and when did it start.
i found myself enticipating each day, all because i cld see u once more.
all of a sudden i get the habit to appear online
all because i get to speak to u.
i was happy at the sight of u
i din how it came to be this way
i enjoyed talking and being jus nex to u
i tot we cld have an enjoyable last few days tgt
though we might nt be tgt, i had hope the last few days would be worth remeberin
but.
i felt the sudden change
in the way we interacted
though u din express it
u were avoiding me
i cant fathom why
i wish i knew, i really do.
if u happen to see this, perhaps u might wanna let me know why
let me know if its jus me, or u really did avoid me
i noe,
some frens say the time we've known each other was so short
so how cld i be accurate?
but i feel in relations
time is rarely the measure of it
and there's this thing called senses
it never lies
i dun think i'll ever get the courage to let u noe
i din wanna ruin the friendship.
i had hopes that i';; finally get a someone
to be with truly
i had hope i might get to celebrate valentines nex year
i had the joke played on me instead
the whole world knows now, do u?
ppl always tell me let nature take its course
but u know wad?
its exactly the amount of time that nature takes
that is able to kill someone's heart indefinately
at times i envy others
its really so painful
i cant fathom what are u thinkin, ...
at times, i tot our feelings were mutual, or isit?
at times, i wonder is it good to know the truth?
at times, i wonder when i said i'd give up, is that the truth?
at times, i wonder when i said i'd give up, is that the truth?
or am i jus using it as an excuse to have an easier, less painful way out?
have i truly given up? y cant i answer my own questions?
am i strong enuff to still put on a neutral face in front of u?
i hear things, but thats jus wad other interpret from u
are they true?
oh for goodness sake, where are your answers?
shld i get them?

~*

doesnt the pain ever go away?

im learning the hard way...
how to take things slow and easy
and we all know
time can sometimes be a knife that is piercing so slowly into the heart.

the pain lingers
i tell my peers
after cryin , i tot it over
but the truth be told
the suffocating pain creeps up on u
wen u least expects it.

alright
i din expect my blog to have so many readings
i tink there're certain things i realy cant deny aledi
but i m nt gg to admit it out loud
i duno why
but im so scared
the fear is eating me by showin me the 'other' possiblities
and i cant show it
i can feel myself cryin on the inside
for those who din experience this b4
i dun tink u'll ever get it
the pain is turnin into some kind of tiredness tads draggin my heart to a bottomless pit
i overheard some wisperings on the bus
i think it wasnt for me
i sort of felt that i know who is it for
sucha small thing
it really cuts me up
dun ask me y
i duno (i think its my fav phrase these days)
today only christ mon and i turn up to prac
the prac session sort of turn into a heartfelt sharin session btwn us
it felt good
i wan these friendships to remain forever
but am i capable of it?
will i be able to face the truth and still pretend that things are really good?
omg
i shldnt have such alert ears
den i wldnt be in turmoil now
all i wanted was jus someone who cld be there for me
why is it jus so hard?
omg
im crying......

im a happy girl:)

came across this video jus as i took a break from sewing

"13 ways to tell if a girl likes someone"
1. you feel shy whenever you're near him
2. you read his texts over and over again
3. whenever you see him u smile
4. you start listening to slow and meaningful songs
5. you laugh at his jokes even if they are not funny
6. he becomes mostly everythng you think about
7. when ppl say you like him, you deny it- but later u thin k maybe you do
8. you would anything for him
9. you blush whenever he complements you
10. you find yourself starin at him all the time
11. you stare at his number wishin you had the courage to cal him
12. you always wish his gonna come up to you and say that he loves you
13. you were thinking about him the whole time you were watching this video


~jetaime♥

whew. wad a day

i have jus officially manage to properly settle down at home like only now
its a really tiring day
but as we all know heavens hav a way of makin things blend and balanced out in the end
i slept at like 4 in the morning yesterday
i cant believe how hard i studied
i dun tink i have ever studied so hard in my recent life
i was freaked out in the morning
cos as usual(fuck!) i was late
i dun understand how can i be late even for my papers?!
i gotta learn to be disciplined!!!
i was late 15 mins for the paper
but i was so frus cos i tot i had studied for nthin last night
the paper was freakin EASY
i finished it in 15mins inclusive of one round of checkin
i was so frus!
so i left the room to cool myself down
luckily, Ricky Phua said there was another paper
essay-styled. so i din study for nth
whew- its weird why do i feel relieved that there's an extra paper?
lqtm. so nt me
i did pretty well for the papers
so i guess i m pretty much prepared for mon and tues paper
*wink wink*

so delighted to meet my girls today!!!
and i finally got mym Pressie from them
its a grey cardi from uniqlo!
I LOVE IT!
its in the checkered pattern i love (thanks to mina!)
the dessert was great! love the chocolate macadamian flavour:)
but i somehow still the layout @ orchard central's lvl 8 -House Loft a lil weird
the Ben and Jerry like doesnt really have a proper linkin theme
and its nt really a soothin ambience
so i dunno:0
anyway its the lovely company i basked in today
so i shall forget abt the interior design then
cant wait to see them again nex week!
i wanna watch soroity row with them!


i finally managed to puck up my courage to take the first step today:)
really pleased and happy:)
it was really a spur of the moment thingy
so i was like woa! i actually got it done!
hahaha*cant stop grinning!*
somehow i get to have some 'alone' time with him
heavens is fair (in some ways ) to me afterall:)
had dinner with my icg peeps first b4 meetin mina, emi, ong
this the part heavens isnt good to me
was i obvious in ways i din know?
somehow J and A were like discussin abt the who like who issue with regards to him
and they link to me
i was taken aback
seriously
din expect them to sudden start the topic
i duno how to describe how i feel
confusion is there
J says he likes me, A says he likes C
how do i know>
im curious really
haiz- my train of tot is gone i tink
i suddenly rmb wad jeanine said b4:
"there’s a special someone out there for everyone, you don’t have to look for that person, that person will find you"
has he?

~*

the air seems cleared:)
happy birthday emi:)-cant wait to see my girls on fri:

as for the rest, (blush) i gotta treasure the time left.

i duno wads gg on...or wad went on.

sometimes, i find i m a too sensitive person.
i m really not sure if thats a plus or minus.
i feel like some friendships are slippin thru my fingers.
Like sand, slippin away.
i cant seem to grab on.
i really duno wads gg on .
i really treasure these relations.
but i have no idea how to keep them.
im really sorry.
i din noe how things came to be this way.
pls. somebody
enlighten me?

i think im having the beginning signs of fallin in L.O.V.E.

The (Bloody) Big Picture

i m getting really sick of the big picture
i hate it now
my mum is ridiculous
i dunno how we can get into a fuckin stupid fight
over my hair
it was really childish
i know the way i answered her wasnt really polite
but the question itself was stupid
i was gg to wash my hair anyway
so wads wrong was twisting it in plaids for a short while?
i cant comphrehend
and now she's still not tokin to me
wad am i like suppose to do?
honestly, i do not tink i was in the wrong
but i really do not need a period of civil war at home right now
esp wen feelings of discontent are brewin within me
i dun wan those feelins i experience 2 years ago to ever come back
they are disgusting feelings
but she's makin it have a comeback
im tired of these kind of childishness in a parent
once in a while, its cute for a parent to throw childish behaviour ard
cos it helps to bond the family
but tad much?>? i tink not.
so anyway, i was again tinking of the idiotic big picture
so i damn begrudingly sent an apology sms to her.
and obviously, she wldnt reply
but i din expect her to come home and still haven got over it
its frigging discomfortin
im at a busy period of my life now
makin the dresses before prom
studying hard for the finals
tryin to find a part time
im like workin hard for my own life now...
i dun wan for this kind of silly actions to appear in my house
haiz
really, how do i get her to understand?
tad we are no longer young,
these kind of so call punishment is only applicable for years 12 and below.
im not gg to give in anymore
i wun speak to her, unless she opens her mouth first
im like so not in the wrong
who ask her to start this whole thing first
even my sis agrees with me that its childish
sis will nt be able to understand now
cosi dun tink she will be gg down the same route as me
but i feel, as sis gets older, she'll comphrehend that certain matters
its not that if u dun travel there, u wun meet it
these issues will come to u in some form or another.
cos now she getting the same things/words/actions from mum, as i did weni was her age.
see.?
and sis is giving her my reactions. Lol. no wonder we are sisters
i came to a realisation last night
we used to say our family is close knitted
(some of ya wld know why we're knitted:>)
but actually, i feel my family is United & Loyal to each other.
BUT, not Close.
its depressing. to have to realise this now.

and the results are.....

i got my dealership results today.
and the results are...
i Got all A's!!!!
Woo-hoo!
YAYS to the max!
damn shiok!
hahhhahaha...okokok (calm down calm down!)
so far so good yup
now having supervisory course... lecs are really killin' me
i cant stand jus sittin there and listen
i know rickie is doin his best to liven up the lesson...
but i really hor, i cannot take jus mono-lessons....
so sorry la

ok and another piece of good news, ppl!
i jus recieve an email frm Fr3B that i have won a hamper as i am selected for ACNES blogger campaign of the year!
double Woo Hoos!
haha... damn cool
i din expect to get it:)

so ladies! do click on the link above to get ur free membership from FR3B
there's lotsa of products to sample there!
and all u have to do is to write reviews and earn points and use those points to get more samples!
its really easy! so fo try it soon ya?

hahaha.. wad a wonderful day today!

wad a great way to start the weekend!
and another plus point: i finish creatin my very own Mannequin !
its not professional lookin' but its totally mine!( it looks architectural though)
will post up pics of it nex time :)


~great life great friends great future

Dior Oui Ring!!!

wen i was studyin (almost done!), i came across this super lovely ring Jeanine posted on her blog :bamboopandalove.wordpress.com

the Dior Oui Ring!

i really love it!!! to bits!!!

i dun tink i can ever get it

so i jus wen to make one out of sliver wires...

lol... its so diff from the original...

but u know , cant have my cake and eat it too right?

jus gotta settle for second best!

lol

tell me how u guys find it ya?

loves~

ps. thanks to jeanine for finding out this ring!:)

hectic week..

ok im goona update this wk's event:)
it will be li li la la, cos i cant rmb everything la!:)
haha..

ICGpeeps came back from genting/KL trip on moday:)
haha. i msg sam but den she told me the guys too shacked
so they goona cancel the trip to sentosa!
and oh my!
jus the 3 days, a whole lota scandals/gossips came abt*wink
the most shockin one was with K and D
i really depise D
he's a total shit with a capital S
he's gt a girl back home
and yet he had to make out with K( who happens to be classmate?!)
damn disgusting...
nvm im not goona say anymore bout the issue
cos i do still take K as a fren as well
so, let's see how things go from here.

So while the guys travel back to home
i was out the whole day with my "clients'
my sis is really my fortune girl:)lol
2 fo her frens wanna get their prom piece
with a unique design and custom to their size
within a budget:)
and its within my ability so i got the deal!
monday was spent enhancing, discussing and finalising designs
cos after that they goona concentrate on their "O"s
after that we went to spotlight to get the precious materials!!
its freaking tiring and it isnt easy money,but like i said: im lovin it lots!!
went home and watch project runway
only den i realise i really require a mannequin
but i cant afford a proper one so as usual, i cant get it, i make it
so now i have a hanger-made mannequin at home!
real proud of it ya!

tues was back to sku - supervisory classes start officially
so it means the class splits and almond's officially now on part time
really do miss him
haiz, and der's obviously somethings gg on btwn him and E
cant help, feelin useless
and eric's not gg to continue and he's not even gg to be our colleague
he's furtherin his career in engineering
i do feel its a smarter move careerwise
but poor vi, haiz
at least we can all come out at times to meet up:)

wed and tue class were B.O.R.I.N.G
only those periods whereby i had to calculate den it was interesting
its similar to accounting but so much more related
took measurements for jane on tues cos i forgot to bring my measuring tape on mon
and ended up spending lots on lunch, damn it, i must learn how to control my spending

thurs- nth much/cant rmb:)
fri was a seriously hectic day
had to meet yt for movie @ 12 (kana scolded by her for being late, again.. sorrry dearie!)
den at 3 rush back to sku to help out at grad ceremony
tot i cld make it in time to help the girls with the tying of ribbons
but unfortunately couldnt paisei!!
took lotsa fotos, seen lotsa of fotos taken as well!
but the food was okokok... normal but too little!
not enuff to go round for the guests!
and wine turned into fruit punch!lol.
luckily carmen din go:)
den after dat i had to rush to meet emi mina manlin for dinner@ vivo
damn fumed at the clementi bus driver
how can u slp in the bus that is on at the same time and at the designated pick up stand!
made SOOO many ppl wait for the fucker to get up
yt say maybe he tired oversleep
if ur really tired, go to the designated area to rest den
dun put our lives in danger and make us fumin'. damn him
mina and manlin say i keep scoldin ppl on my blog
maybe one day will scold them...hAHAH
i will nv haveto scold my peeps on my blog one lo!
they're too good!*winks*
laugh like crazy with them at the rooftop!
had my first "clubbin experience" with them at a 'club' called 'The Lampost" @level3\
*rolls ard with laughter*
met M's new girl:) i have to say, although its goona sound so bad, she's so much better then the previous. alrightie, full stop.

sat- manage to get the measurement from yanru:) can start work on hers now!
damn excited!

sun- bazaar day!
haha i manage to get up like super early!
was perpared to get out of bed @745 cos carmen say she pickin me up at 830
jsu wen i get up on my bed i recieve her msg say pick me up at 930 instead
i was sooo happy can get another 45 mins more sleep
den at 8 something she msg me again saying 1030 instead
lol!!!
we are too similar:)
but i said earlier so manage to reach therr(big splash ) @ 10 20:)
business was poor
the traffic is miserable and the ppl bargin like fuckin crazy
so i din make much at all
but at least can cover cost and still get a positive
poor carmen, i tink she made a lost this time
left at 3, cos really dun wanna waste them there under the fuckin sweltering weather!
i dun wan a tan!
at the bazaar, i brainstorm that why nt i be the flea organiser instead?
well, i gotta think properly abt this.
den at dinner, almond, msg me, saying they goona meet up for dinner @ where u noe?
east coast @ my bazaar space there the Carl's junior
haiz, perhaps if i stayed as plan, i might be havin dinner with them instead:)
lol its jus fated. cos i gotta enjoy a real good dinner wiht my fam instead@ Grandma's restuarant!
i strongly recommened this place @ united Sq !
the food is FAB! esp for those who loves spicy food!
goona drag mina emi and manlin there one day!

yuppies!!!!
im finally done!!!
damn ass tired
tink im goona drop dead.
lol
ciao!

my Jimmy Choo inspired caged Zip heels hs officially arrived home.

i TOTALLY LOVE IT

im gonna wear it tmr

~*~

my peeps @ ICG are setting off for Genting tonight

though jealous, i seriously wish them safe and happyness:)

hopefully, they'll bring me back a pressie!!

LOL...

The Real You (Me).

"The truth is, you already are aware of yourself and who you are. You've come to terms with yourself and have been through almost everything. You live, love, and cherish. You've already shown everyone your true colors. Your life is complete. Nothing hold you back. You've lived with regrets, anger, hurt, despair, light dark, and everything in between. However, these things won't stop you. Keep living on. You find beauty in yourself and others. You are prone to changing. You let your emotions out and keep them that way. Everyone admires you for your loyalty and trustworthiness. You are a truly unique and one in your own. "

Thank You.:)


p.s jus change my hairstyle, will upload fotos soon:)

Wheew... wad a 2 weeks!

lets start from last fri:)
got to know of a dealing job from joyce
the organiser's Jack Daniels
those who drink hard liquor will know abt it:)
we (christ eve & i) are suppose to deal BJ
i tot it wld be the casino type
but to my disappointment, they wanted new year BJ
the place was like in an lounge
no offense Joyce- i tot it was suppose to be a restuarant
communcication break down
haiz
i was attracted by the pay
15 bucks an hour!!!
can u believe
i had to try ya'know!
haha
but i've decided
i wun be gg back
its an experience no matter wad
im that kind who mus try it out first
before i die heart la!
lol

~*~

sunday wen into Msia
watch turning pt
O.M.G
i have a new husband now!!
laughing gor is SOOOO handsome!
so charming
i gladly die havin known and fall in love with such a guy
love that makes it worthy to die for:)

~*~

just finish the training schedule for BJ
so today jus finish the exam
easy like hell
there's like repeat questions!?
thrice u know
sometimes i wonder whether they put effort in setting up the paper
okok
i know its nt fair
how does one com up with a paper for modules like gambling?
haha
damn FED UP with bony today
bloody irritating lo
i was doin chip change
i was suppose to announce :chip change 2000
i am saying :chip change..
that idiot stop me and say: u didnt say chip change 2000
i told him: i am abt to say it!
(u are the idiot to stop me!)
wa lao
i use to tink that he was a better trainer
becos he's more xi xin
but now i realise he is too xi xin
until the extent that he tends to overdo things
he wldnt give u the oppurtunity to finish doin things before he corrects u
as u do, he stops u, den u get thrown off track, u get lost,
den u try hard to get back on track, once ur on track continuing,
suddenly he stops u AGAIN, the circle continues
u wldnt learn anything den
ur train of tot keeps gettin cut off
at the end u don really know where u gt off track.
wth
he's so tempermental too
very much like a women, no worse:)
lol buay tahan
pray hard i dun meet him at work la:)

~*~

today had those last min dinner and KTV with my peeps
lol
damn lovin' it man
haha laugh like crazy in joyce's car with vi and eric
hahaha
still feel like laughing thinking abt it
( turn right! while signalin left!)
hahah
the katong KTV's really v.f.m (value for money)
nex time lets go ther k, me other dearies!
its only 55 for 4 hours!
there's no food though
but nvm ma
we can bring our own in (secretly)
hahah
we 7 person go sing leh!
imagine how much we save!
hahaha
i got to sing bleedin love!
damn happy!
my voice now gt trained to 8 octaves higher i tink
lol
really glad i "risk" my life to go dinning with them!
love ya all

~*~
CIAO`

why why why?

Seeing them tgt ignites my self pity again
and wen self pity gets too much
it crosses over to jealousy
i really dun like it
i dun understand
how can one person conduct so many contradicting emotions?
its making me confuse
i know i shld be glad
but at the same time, i felt jealous
Arrrrgh!
this is such an ugly feeling
i dun need it
i dun wan it

but i still wonder: why nt me?

she's really irritating...

i dunno i really dunno her
she tinks that she once in a while
come and nag at me
scream at me with vulgarities
she's being a responsible mother
my dad ask me
why dun u jus explain to her
im like
where's the point?
the more i explain, the more she tinks im tryin to
cover up for my 'bad' actions
im like 20
but i tink she still tinks im 2
she wans me to slp b4 12?
i mean for the past 3 years
i have aledi been used to slpin after 1
and, its just that i happen to be wearin my specs
in the morning cos i worked on the sewin for KY's farewell gift till like 4 plus
so my eyes were like really tired for one day becos of that
only one day u know
and she tinks she the MOTHER
she knows everything abt me
she tinks she understands
ohh pls
now she's screamin if u dun wanna take care of ur eyes now
from TODAY onwards, if ur eyes gt any problem
DUN COME and find me!!!
i wun bother abt u at all!
im like FUCK YOU!
u nv even realy care b4
so what difference does it really make now?
i really find it so SAD
today i saw KY , my best fren, off to HK for her further studies
I WISHED WISHED WISHED SOOOOOOOOOOO HARD
TO LEAVE WITH HER AS WELL
omg im crying
on the inside cos they are still nt asleep
its really saddening
for a mother to nt even be able to understand a lil bit of the deeper emotions of her own daughter
after 20 years
how is it possible for this to happen?
how can she still nt understand
i cant wait to start work
i jus cant wait
once i get in
i'll try my best to ask for transfers to overseas departments
pls my peers, pray hard for me
pla pray that i may leave here soon
i love my family including her
BUT
i need to be away from them a period
otherwise
i dun tink i'll be able to cherish them
be fore i really lose it and lose them forever

OMG, i really miss u KY.
come back soon
i miss.....so much.

i got this wallet.

be envious:)

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

omg , i tink im going to cry:)
Lol,, okok im gettin' a lil' bit emo here
hahaha
i tink this might be my best birthday ever. Yet.:)

firstly, i wanna say a uber BIG THANK YOU to all my ICg frens!!
they are just so cute can
i tink they were gonna surprise me with a birthday cake and singing:)
lol but as i walk to the pantry
vivian walk out but din stop me la
so i walk right into their preparations !
lol somemore i was standing there for a while
b4 Li Shi realise im there!
LOL
i abit surprise:) i din all of them to celebrate for me
*tears on the verge of my eyes*
in the end i tink almost the whole class was in the pantry!
lol(gave one piece to Raj too! hopefully my exam can get better grades)

~*~

the best part of all was dinner time!
i met up with my 2 gems YT & KY
we had dinner at xin wang taiwan cafe:)
lol:) I WAS STUFFED man!
the 3 of us ordered 4 main dish, 1 side dish, 2 dessert and 2 drinks
hahaha... really alot right?!
den after dinner
we walk to esplanade and sat down at the riverside
its was really good
i cant rmb the last time the 3 of us
had the time and energy to stay tgt and chat bout almost nthing, everything:)
im grateful for the 8 years of friendship
i dun tink i can ever find frens like them anymore
they are like family:)
i really love them
today was the best prove of our deep relations
we cld jus sit there under the skies and tok so much rubbish
if it wasnt for the rain
i dun tink we know the time at all
love cld run cold, family cld leave you
but i believe our friendship will withstand all storms and provide the closet support ever
and i believe
i've already been given the best present ever for my birthday:)
thank you so much, my loves:)

on a side note: ky u owe me somethingy, and thank goodness u finally give me back my book!
lol why din u just finish writing the story? it was brillant!

Yt, Ky, Me


the night scene @ esplanade



the lost book & I


Ky & I ( Normal version)


YT & I (Normal Version)


the side dish ( the one that we gt cheated of)

KY & I (Funny Ver.)

YT & I (Funny Ver.)

HAHAHA ... SO Funny!

drained.

very long din blog
cos this few days really feel drained
all the turmoils of the *heart*
damnit
and my IE8 is super uncooperative
wth
but its pretty good that mum win 4d
so tonight manage to get a pretty fillin' dinner @ mahattan's
the mocktail was really good
i love the blue paradise compared to simply red though
well

my class is thinking of havin a class trip to genting
i wish to go
but i dunno whether to go
but the most impt thing is
how to convince my parents?
its the golden question
any ideas peeps?

Happy Birthday Daddy!

this is the first year our whole family celebrated Daddy's birthday exactly on the dot at 12 midnight:)
lol:) i will treasure the feelin of havin all my most loved family ard to celebrate one of our birthday(s):)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!
ps. curretnly jus finish making his bdae card:)

damn sleepy ...ciao~

hate the stupid weather
its forever HUMID!!!
its really no wonder isnt it> that i wan to leave Singapore:
its such a pity i cant join my ICG peeps on sat to go on the boat
sigh,, it further emphasise my intent to start 'fighting' for my own freedom
i tink i reached the stage whereby i begin to hate doin housework
i tink i reached this stage abit eariler then many others
other ppl start to feel tad way perhaps at age 26 &above?
but im like barely 20 and i feel this irritating feeling
its really because i started housework at like 11 or 12
so ive been like doin it for abt 8 years aledi?
i really dunno
was it a waste of time?
cos ive been wondering
all those sats or sundays i spent at home doin housework
how much did i miss?
how many ppl did i miss?
what things did i not do?
and these few days
im beginning to feel that my mum's taking me for granted
its like wen i go to sku on weds for DSE
i will not have the time and energy to iron clothes
but my mum will come home and ask me why din i iron clothes>
i really have no idea wad to say
how do tell her wad i truly feel
i actually feel that its suppose to be a mother's job
to get the housework done
yes i know she's tired from being the main pole of income
but really, as a proper mother, pls know wen its time to cut down the amount of housework
and allowed to conduct a proper young adult's life
yes, no doubt its also a daughter's position to help out her mum
but i feel a mother shld not take it for granted
that i MUS be doin it
other mums understand the impt of knowing wen to let their child go on their own ways wen they reach of age
how come my mum doesnt?
while takin it for granted that i have to do housework, she also restricts my freedom
im like 20 but! ive never slept over at a frens' b4
ive never been to a club
ive never been out lata den midnight
ive never been allowed to breathe true freedom
yes i had a very serious conv with them wen i was 18/19
they say they will give me my freedom gradually
yes the time curfews were extended
BUT the ultimate thing is
The CURFews are still there
as long as there're there it doesnt change anything
my desperation is increasing
i dunno where my deadline is
i really cant wait to start work
its like only weni start work i can create opps for myself to leave them officially
i dun understand why does it have to be this way
i mean, im sure u guys can understand how embarrassin it is to always have to be the one
who leaves b4 11, and the reason is " cos i have a curfew by my parents, im afraid to be scolded for being home late?"and im aledi 20.
i cant even decided weni want to be home
i know how this may sound to some of u
that im jus behaving like some spoilt child throwin my missy trandums
but can u undestand?
for the past 20 years of my life
i literally have to FIGHT for my own freedom
at its at an extremely terrifyingly slow rate
if i din work hard on my own
i probably still dunno so many things
i'll jus be a dumbass
i wont even be a bimbo( cos they are pretty though they are dumb), im not even pretty
ARRRG
these few days i can almost taste desperation in my mouth
i m tryin really hard to keep those unhappy emotions under control
and wad makes things worse>?
there's not only 1 desperation
oh pls heavens,
why do i hav to go through so much turbulent emotions?
why wont U show me a teeny wee bit more mercy?

i love today's impromtuness

omg it feels really really good to jus jump out straight after training
i love it
( only damp part was i stil had to ask for permission, bloody sickening)
Haha:) i wasnt planning on gg at first
cos i tot daddy was cookin tonight
luckily i decided to try my luck and call home b4 i leave
AND! i found out that he din cook and Bingo! i got to go
so in the end, Alvin, Eric, Edmund, Sinling, Vivian, Evelyn, Christine, Linda, Li Shi, Mandy and I
went for the K-ing Session@ Party World
damn Funny and Shiok! i finally get to sing after like AGES k!
we have so many Singers in our class man:)
i suspect the guys wen to secretly practice b4 the K:)LOL
so today we really 吃吃水果,唱唱歌, 跳跳舞!
pics and vids up @ FB:)
tink i found my hokkien K kaki liao!
lol
Sam came after a movie:) i left by then:) got the STUPID CUrfew!
Fuck. im seriously gonna have a proper tok with my parents
im like always the earliest to leave.
why the HELL isit always ME?
But nevertheless:) im glad for the bonding with them!

updating

i fuckin hell hate blogger now
if it wasnt becase its ma fan to switch to other bloggin areas
i wld have done it right now!
today just before dinner
i was typin this entire week's update
i click on save twice
but in the end my entire episode was deleted!!!!!
fuck fuck fuck.
now i have to retype EVERYTHING!

~*~

thurs was carmen's bdae
sinling and i decided to give her a lil surprise:)
but unfortunately due to our assess timings
the surprise wasnt really a surprise in the end
but i think carmen loved it though( right, dearie?)
i wanted james kiky and zhang ying to join us
so i sent them an English msg
it ended up with a bit laughable "misunderstandings"LOL
luckily kiky called me
otherwise arh...
the cake was really good:)
from emicakes, credits to sinling:)
but wads the best part?
my dearest fren Yt
went down on thurs to turf city!
she went there to get a part time
but the timin wasnt that gd though
she came at bout 4
i finished my assess long ago:)
so i went ard taking pics like crazy
i wanted to load the pics here
but den STUPID BLOGGER!
so u guys have to go my FB to see the pics:)
anyways my stomach just had to be against me that day
i tot i cld go to town with yt
but wen i reach toa payoh my stomach created havoc
so in the end yt had to go home from tp
i am SO SOrry!
i promise i'll be well on wed ya...
cant wait to see yt and ky on wed!

~*~

my other dearest fren ky is leaving for HK
i have to admit
i was alil upset i din know of it from her
but nevertheless
im still worried for her
i am happy for her too
so its a state fo confusion now
but im starting to miss her aledi
i dunno wen are we able to meet face2face again
after she leaves
i really really look forward to seein her on wed:)

~*~

since i finish assess on thurs
(was really happy with it :> got a very good from my trainer!)
i was free on fri:)
i finish up house cleaning on fri(had a lil arguement with sis though)
so that i cld go to MBS's sat dealer recruitment
i jus hav a feelin im gonna see all my ICG frens there soon enuff:)
cant wait to get workin' babe:)

~*~

G2000 HAs FABULOUS SaLES!
i bought my blazer (finally) and another white long sleeve top with french cuffs

at how much only u know?
SGD 61.20!!!!!
can u imagine?
since wen can u get blazers @ SGD 49? plus i got additional 15% off with my parents' CitiBank card:)
i am super happy with it man!!
mummy says it will be my bdae pressie from her
im like yes! LOL
bloddy happy!
now i cant wait to get new shoes
i have my eye on one pair online and another @AMK hub's Mitju:)
and a few more at Charles&Keith
hahaha... omg i tink im getting the Acute Shoes Attraction (ASA) syndrome
haha, i dun ever wanna recover man:)
daddy was askin me today: hy do u need to buy so many shoes?
im like speechless
cos i really dunno how to explain
lol:) im sure jam dearie u understand right?
haha.. i jus NEED them man!

~*~

got my new twitter acct

so wads nex?

lol i gotta admit

twitter's layout is def much better den FB's

~*~

manage to find out a new way to continue my online blogshop
i really pray hard that this time round its gonna be better
pls pls shower some love on me Lady luck
i wonder if i have used up my life's luck quota on those concert ticks( waddaya think Yt?)

~*~

alrighty that concludes the previous week:)
cant wait to start on Bacarrat tmr!
woohoo~


~*~

F.I.N.A.L.L.Y

FOR GOODNESS SAKE, BLOGGER IS FINALLY OK!
(oops:( perhaps i shldnt say it so early:) lol)

ok lets go on to my previous topic:)

wen to meet Minzy Yt Ah Bel at the * drum roll*

ION Orchard!

the place is like a maze man!

lucky got tourguide(Yt) LOL

need more den a day to properly tour the entire area

so we wen to eat at the Xin Wang Cha chan ting

4 thumbs up for the food:)

the tou hua is really smooth

and the four of us are so lazy

so a long while after we finish the main course

we iny miny iny mo and finally

settled on the following dessert( i forgot the name):

BEFORE

AFTER

( the whole thing is gone in the end- credits to YT)

~*~

This week was pretty good:)

managed to get quite a number of things!

lol

but i still wanna get my shoes

just wondering whether to buy here or online

any suggestions?

but still i managed to "savage" a few things:

CYBER COLOURS- BROWN GEL EYELINER

after watching 女人我最大

i decided to try out a new colour in eyeliners:

BROWN
its suppose to be a more natural colour

AND! this year's "in" make up for the eyes is the natural innocence look

so pick this up girls!

NEON BLUE CLUTCH

BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM YT( ILOVE U!!)

credit: bangkok

CELIA- (White) SHINY AUTO PEARL PENCIL

CELIA- (Black) NATURAL AUTO EYEBROW PENCIL

Credit: SaSa (buy 1 get 1 free:>)

the white liner is pretty good

it manage to stay on for a long time:)

MY LOVELY PETS (earrings)

I TOTALLY ADORE THEM!

dont you just love them?:)

MR GREEDY, MR SMALL, MR NOSEY, MR SUNSHINE

this craze all started with Minzy!

LOL

you can get this at all 7eleven stores

with any purchase at 1.8 per ball:)

btw, i din really like Miss Sunhine

i noe its really cute but i just din like it

so if any of u guys wan this just let me noe:)

i'll give it to ya!

CASINO CHIPS( NOT THE REAL ONES)

super cool isnt it?!

i bought them for practise:)

~*~

i jus watch a video Wang Q posted a link to on facebook

LINK

PLS do find some time to watch this

its really touching

i cried after that.

Alrighty then, tmr's got grooming and etiquette

so im gona ciao now~

stupid blogger

blogger is still having probs man
i am damn fed up with it
tink i might have to switch if this doesnt clear up soon
i cant post pics at all

btw i realised the importance of eye make up today
i somehow i duno how i manage to draw a very good "innocence, big eye" look for my eyes follwing the 女人我最大's way of doin it
and my eyes really look beautiful:)
im really really glad i followed it!
now i love my eyes more den ever!
LOL

LOL

this week had 2 exams CFC & RDC
the papers were really easy ok.
i dun mean to say any things but its just that there were really easylo
but today i had a trial assessment for roulette
not too bad for me :)
was a litttle nervous though gt one or 2 mistakes:)
i was a little pissed by my fren wen she did everything wrong but cld still smile so brightly
i mean i got 2 mistakes and i was aledi pissed at my own stupid nervousness
tads why i cldnt understand
but nvm.. i must concentrate on my dealin skills... i still need improvements
lets go on to happier things man:)
today Mon and Clarence are super funny!!!
had sinling and I laughing like crazy
Mon's "wish bone" in a chicken (i still dunno wad that is?!
and how a chicken ends up with 4 drums 2 wings ?!
omg i feell like laughing again thinkign abt it!!!
mon went on to disturb vivian cos we were crying from laughter:)
(something along the lines of a 'relationship'.. super Funny!i dunno how to imitate him)
but sinling, clarence and even carmen (i think) understood the jokes and we know they were of good nature:)
but somehow vivian keeps tellin me that Mon is weird so im like HUH? u serious?
puhlez.
she really needs some help on socialing man
its frustrating man cos blogger has some virus i think the posting layout is wrong and i cant post pics at all
i wanted to blog abt the date with zm yt and bel one lo
fuck .
i'll do it nex time
afterive figured out blogger
so long~

i love faceshop:)

im so in love with the new faceshop series of nail polish
its retailing at 7.9 each
i find its so worth it!
u know how nail polish will become gluey and patchy wen u apply too many a layers? and it takes forever to dry and if u accidentally touch it , omg, chaos on ur nails man.
the polish from faceshop however DOES NOT become like a gloo wen u accidentally apply too much layers:)
jus look at my nails- can u tell i applied 4 layers on it?
its totally flat like other polishes wen only applied once:)
i tink im gonna switch sides like Beauty C back to faceshop!
girls go try it out ya!

see how thin the layer is?

callin all my lovelies out there!!!
do check out the web fr3b.com k?
its providing free samples in exchange for reviews on the products:)
all u have to pay is the postages:)
pls do click on my link here so that i can earn reference pts:)
pls pls do help me k?


i love u guys!

had to practise like crazy today
hands trembling

manage to keep the laughter in me and the ones surrounding me

at times i get tired of always having to be the one to create laughter

it really does get tirin sometimes

but:) i do like it

i really cant stand having my life wasted on being glum and all

that why i always do my best to keep the laughs:)

had lunch with most of the girls today

tried out the western store and had a great surprise with the drinks they served!

super cute right? its looks just drinks served at a sandy beach bar:):)

i love it!

perhaps i shld get my girls to eat there with me some day!

btw: happy bday jam dear:)

not feelin gd

i din feel good today

i missed jam's surprise bade party

i missed li ying's farewell( i din even noe abt it i jus knew she waas leaving but nt wen)
i actually do feel left out

i missed huiz by nt being able to assist her thru her dark moments
and i cant really properly contact her cos of my schedule
i 'l keep tryin to
i feel left out again

i missed those times wen my frens and i are able to just freely with a proper mature mind
unlike how now my class is ( cos of one person)

i missed those periods whereby my learning capacity is properly appreciated
my trainer actually told us to stay on nex wed cause wad u know?
our class is slow behind schedule
bloody helll, its not even my fault
the bloody slow rate that they are teaching at
the "new" students that jus keep pouring in at 2nd week of sch
then the trainer have to set the rest of the class to jus normal chippin trainin while he re-go thru evrything again for them
i dun mean to brag but i m a pretty fast learner
just give it to me straight once and for all
and i manage it right
but i understand that there are some in my class who are weaker at certain issues
but that's where the weds come in as free practise day who trainers to go one on one wad
and the trainer is bloody non patient
i mean we are paying u leh for god sake
and as a trainer/teacher/lecturer whatever
arent u suppose to have the for goodness sake PATIENCE!!!???
damn u.

i wish i have more time per day now
den i dun have to worry and stress so much
hell.

i lost weight!

bloody hell
everybody listenn up!!!
I LOST WEIGHT!!!!
LOL
bloody happy:)

I MISS YOU JACKSON.M

I REALLY DO

COS TILL NOW I CANT BELIEVE U'RE GONE

SOMEONE COMMENTED THAT U DIN GO TO HEAVEN BUT

WENT ON STRAIGHT TO NEVERLAND GUIDED BY THAT 2ND STAR

I THINK...

IM GONNA BELIEVE THAT.

LOVE, FOREVER.

OOPS!

PLS BELIEVE ME!!!

i swear i really really din set out with a TRUE intention to shop:)

but somehow, the things will end up in my hands and i will be miracously at the cashier!

my new sunglass!

wen im done with this i'll post it up:)

dun ask me why:) i jus wanted a full collection.

and, they are jus gg for 1 buck each

so tell me, how to resist?

this is aleadi the dunno 2nd or 3rd one i bought for my sis

somehw or rather, she always mangaed to break it:(

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and yup the week b4 my sku started i was desparetely trying to meet up once with all my loves

but i stupidly only rmb to take photos using my hp at only 1 outing

damnt.

the following are those taken wen i meet up with YT, KY, Bel bel

& s'pore is so bloody small

i actually managed to bump into my sis and her frens

we ended up playing Pool( which i was so busy laughing i forgt to take pictures) and Bowling tgt:)
note: it was so difficult to get KY to take a proper photo

so most shots that are blur with action

will most prob be hers with wild moves in trying to'escape'

or she''ll appear unaware!

lol.

ah mei and one of her 2 bestie: tam(with specs)

yanning had an unfortunate curfew.

HATE curfews

who the hell invented them?

see wad i meant?:)

~*~