flowers, scents, dew, kisses

maybe it was a mistake to look at you
maybe we shldnt have known each other at all
then i wldnt feel so horrible and confused now
i decided to let it go already
and yet,
i had to see that scene
u smiled so happily
at her, with her
not me
in the beginning, it was with me
why did i have to see that scene
cos it aroused my jealously
i din expect it
i really din
thads wen i realise
it, was so silly of me to force myself to forget
hw cld i ?
omg, i really shld nt have seen that
why did i constantly find myself lookin in his direction
if i din do that
i prob wldnt have seen it
wld he understand this feelin if he sees this?
sometimes i wish
i were invisible
den i cld get near him to find out the truth
w/o lettng him know
at least i wldnt have to risk our friendship
or let someone else get the answer and i'll jus eavesdrop
sigh.
and what with the upcoming trip
its only 2d1n to genting
my brain tends to worry too much and my heart tends to think too much
i look forward to it
but wad happens next?
wad will happen durin those days?
i duno
i might spill if it gets too much
den i really dunno how things will go


some one. help me. Please.