flowers, scents, dew, kisses

alright
i din expect my blog to have so many readings
i tink there're certain things i realy cant deny aledi
but i m nt gg to admit it out loud
i duno why
but im so scared
the fear is eating me by showin me the 'other' possiblities
and i cant show it
i can feel myself cryin on the inside
for those who din experience this b4
i dun tink u'll ever get it
the pain is turnin into some kind of tiredness tads draggin my heart to a bottomless pit
i overheard some wisperings on the bus
i think it wasnt for me
i sort of felt that i know who is it for
sucha small thing
it really cuts me up
dun ask me y
i duno (i think its my fav phrase these days)
today only christ mon and i turn up to prac
the prac session sort of turn into a heartfelt sharin session btwn us
it felt good
i wan these friendships to remain forever
but am i capable of it?
will i be able to face the truth and still pretend that things are really good?
omg
i shldnt have such alert ears
den i wldnt be in turmoil now
all i wanted was jus someone who cld be there for me
why is it jus so hard?
omg
im crying......