The (Bloody) Big Picture

i m getting really sick of the big picture
i hate it now
my mum is ridiculous
i dunno how we can get into a fuckin stupid fight
over my hair
it was really childish
i know the way i answered her wasnt really polite
but the question itself was stupid
i was gg to wash my hair anyway
so wads wrong was twisting it in plaids for a short while?
i cant comphrehend
and now she's still not tokin to me
wad am i like suppose to do?
honestly, i do not tink i was in the wrong
but i really do not need a period of civil war at home right now
esp wen feelings of discontent are brewin within me
i dun wan those feelins i experience 2 years ago to ever come back
they are disgusting feelings
but she's makin it have a comeback
im tired of these kind of childishness in a parent
once in a while, its cute for a parent to throw childish behaviour ard
cos it helps to bond the family
but tad much?>? i tink not.
so anyway, i was again tinking of the idiotic big picture
so i damn begrudingly sent an apology sms to her.
and obviously, she wldnt reply
but i din expect her to come home and still haven got over it
its frigging discomfortin
im at a busy period of my life now
makin the dresses before prom
studying hard for the finals
tryin to find a part time
im like workin hard for my own life now...
i dun wan for this kind of silly actions to appear in my house
haiz
really, how do i get her to understand?
tad we are no longer young,
these kind of so call punishment is only applicable for years 12 and below.
im not gg to give in anymore
i wun speak to her, unless she opens her mouth first
im like so not in the wrong
who ask her to start this whole thing first
even my sis agrees with me that its childish
sis will nt be able to understand now
cosi dun tink she will be gg down the same route as me
but i feel, as sis gets older, she'll comphrehend that certain matters
its not that if u dun travel there, u wun meet it
these issues will come to u in some form or another.
cos now she getting the same things/words/actions from mum, as i did weni was her age.
see.?
and sis is giving her my reactions. Lol. no wonder we are sisters
i came to a realisation last night
we used to say our family is close knitted
(some of ya wld know why we're knitted:>)
but actually, i feel my family is United & Loyal to each other.
BUT, not Close.
its depressing. to have to realise this now.