i dunno i really dunno her
she tinks that she once in a while
come and nag at me
scream at me with vulgarities
she's being a responsible mother
my dad ask me
why dun u jus explain to her
im like
where's the point?
the more i explain, the more she tinks im tryin to
cover up for my 'bad' actions
im like 20
but i tink she still tinks im 2
she wans me to slp b4 12?
i mean for the past 3 years
i have aledi been used to slpin after 1
and, its just that i happen to be wearin my specs
in the morning cos i worked on the sewin for KY's farewell gift till like 4 plus
so my eyes were like really tired for one day becos of that
only one day u know
and she tinks she the MOTHER
she knows everything abt me
she tinks she understands
ohh pls
now she's screamin if u dun wanna take care of ur eyes now
from TODAY onwards, if ur eyes gt any problem
DUN COME and find me!!!
i wun bother abt u at all!
im like FUCK YOU!
u nv even realy care b4
so what difference does it really make now?
i really find it so SAD
today i saw KY , my best fren, off to HK for her further studies
I WISHED WISHED WISHED SOOOOOOOOOOO HARD
TO LEAVE WITH HER AS WELL
omg im crying
on the inside cos they are still nt asleep
its really saddening
for a mother to nt even be able to understand a lil bit of the deeper emotions of her own daughter
after 20 years
how is it possible for this to happen?
how can she still nt understand
i cant wait to start work
i jus cant wait
once i get in
i'll try my best to ask for transfers to overseas departments
pls my peers, pray hard for me
pla pray that i may leave here soon
i love my family including her
BUT
i need to be away from them a period
otherwise
i dun tink i'll be able to cherish them
be fore i really lose it and lose them forever
OMG, i really miss u KY.
come back soon
i miss.....so much.
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hey jess, after reading this entry, it brought me back to the times in pri sch.. i can rmb that your mum was very strict, but you were so playful then too. always say "aiya, don't care her la" i guess parents don't change much even after years huh? well well. i hope you're still sane and maybe we can meet for lunch :) Hehe. <3
thanks babe! i really do hop ewe will meet up soon:) havent seen u guys like in ages!!
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