not feelin gd

i din feel good today

i missed jam's surprise bade party

i missed li ying's farewell( i din even noe abt it i jus knew she waas leaving but nt wen)
i actually do feel left out

i missed huiz by nt being able to assist her thru her dark moments
and i cant really properly contact her cos of my schedule
i 'l keep tryin to
i feel left out again

i missed those times wen my frens and i are able to just freely with a proper mature mind
unlike how now my class is ( cos of one person)

i missed those periods whereby my learning capacity is properly appreciated
my trainer actually told us to stay on nex wed cause wad u know?
our class is slow behind schedule
bloody helll, its not even my fault
the bloody slow rate that they are teaching at
the "new" students that jus keep pouring in at 2nd week of sch
then the trainer have to set the rest of the class to jus normal chippin trainin while he re-go thru evrything again for them
i dun mean to brag but i m a pretty fast learner
just give it to me straight once and for all
and i manage it right
but i understand that there are some in my class who are weaker at certain issues
but that's where the weds come in as free practise day who trainers to go one on one wad
and the trainer is bloody non patient
i mean we are paying u leh for god sake
and as a trainer/teacher/lecturer whatever
arent u suppose to have the for goodness sake PATIENCE!!!???
damn u.

i wish i have more time per day now
den i dun have to worry and stress so much
hell.