S.T.O.P.

i put him on my handphone's wallpaper
and i told myself
the day i take it down
is the day i decide to forget the whole relation with him
its too tiring
like wad jie say
before it gets too deep
its best to Stop
and i have decided
it really is the Time to Stop
i know even as i type this
i wonder if i can really do it
i must be resolute
i must tell myself, there are no 'ifs'
and there are no 'buts'
i get so affected by it
that its draggin down my own behaviour
i dun wan this
shld we were meant to be den i shldnt have to suffer this way
i dun wish to be affect by u anymore
you put it across so purposely
that you wish to avoid me
i have no idea where to place myself
within the realms of my consciences and self esteem
i look so pathetic
i know, it will take some time
well, jus let it be...
in the meantime
i''l jus bury and lock up every lil feelin i have for u
and in the meantime,
I, will Lock up my Heart.
perhaps forever.......


Goodbye, HTG