a silly affair

thoughts were slowed.
actions became automated.
what wld or can u do if u were me?
i m no longer sure.
of wad is, wad if
i think, wad my sis said is true
if u believe in previous and after lives
den wad i m gg to say nex will den make sense to u
i may be paying a debt i own her from my previous life
if its really true
den i sincerely hope to finish paying this lifetime
and den lets end it here.
this mother daughter relation is jus too testing for me
its like almost every 2-3 months it will happen once...
i get so tired of such things
esp at this period now
when im having more den my fair share of problems
why she as a mother can fail to notice such events
i jus realised
im a person with so much expectations
and this recent period in my life
i realised everything is failing my expectations
the whole issue with my mum
its such a silly affair.
i duno how long will it take for me to finally have enuf to have a place on my own
but that is my sincere wish for now.



*things have gotten so stressful with him...