*tsk.

When someone controls you so strictly,

it doesnt mean that

he loves you

it simply says

" i love myself more."

Sigh...is gettin a job really a MUST?

i felt so tired today

met huiz at 2 (ok i am so sorry i am late once again. so sorry Huiz)
wen for the application at Kino and Muji
i dun think i will get any of them
(but huiz will i think:>)
simply because of the duration
i only need abt a 2 month temp(anybody who knows one pls let me noe!!)
but after i start training i want a job for weds and weekends
sigh.
things dun often go smoothly for me
ever since pri days.
in P6 i suddenly lost my 2 best frens (until now i dun noe what happen?)
and i was the only one who went to St marg's
Alone.
when i tot i finally gt to settle peacefully
i had to be the only one to get shifted away alone
then comes Poly
i was alone for the first 2 days
the feeling is horrible (def sickening feeling)
cause i gt in at the last min
everyone had their cliques at orientation
And Now
i am alone. Again
i will be gg into an industry Alone
i duno. is all simply just a test from heavens?
bloody hell. ppl here are simply just NOT Friendly
the kino mgt recep has really harsh manners
i wonder isit true that we lack social graces?
I dunno
i wanna get away from singapore
the Casino might be my only Chance
i must appreciate it
no matter what happens i will fight for it
i know some ppl may wonder
how come i can b so sure?
i dunno
i just sort of Feel it.(Sixth sense pls be right)
i am tired.

Breaking Dawn sinking my soul

i polished Breaking Dawn in the short span of 2 days

but

it will stick with forever. Deeply.

i admit happy endings don't stick with me

this is an Exception

i wonder if its really simply because

i have a strong desire for vampire stories

i truly wonder

breaking dawn will one of the best books ever written in my history

in fact, i doubt if anyone can ever find/write another quite as intriguing

i love it.

really.

the impact is so DEEP.

how come i end up prefering to go other ppl's house instead of staying at home?

wen to ah ong's house yesterday.
the feeling is fab(cos i m still suffering from addicition):)
lol.
my new shoes are killing my feet
but i feel it was worth it to suffer the pain wen i am walkin with my buds:)
hahaha... my whole body is aching after i came home .
i know iknow...
i am rotting too much.
i am beginning surface from the 2 months of hibernation:
cos i myself cant stand it aledi!\
felt like aunites when oh ong and i went shoppin at NTUC at JP
lol. this few days i keep feeling auntish:)
at her house we end up playing wii in an AIRCONDITIONED room
i love aircons
i am so gonna give credit to whoever that has invented it.
world's best creator.
hate the fucking weather.
anyways:) playing Wii @ the house was super funny
i'll wan2 get one soon
Everyone's damn Funny
esp mina wen we play Resident Evil
i gt scared lo...
hahah
i love them all:)
spending time with them was
So .. easy
compared to spendng time with my mum at home
she makes it so difficult to communicate with her
like today ....
she totally pounced on the opp to rattle, scream and shout at all of us at home...
buay tahan
and she actually wonders why is ti so hard for us as daughters to talk to her
i really cant stand it
i am thinking of when the day will come
when i will stand up to her in her face
when?..

i support Man U

i cant stand Rafael Benítez. he's the manager of Liverpool.

i mean what's is his prob?
how can he claim to be professionl
when his entics says otherwise?
so what if Man U lost to Liverpool
i really hope/ wish Man U wins 4 titles!!!!
Pls win ok?!!
let's see what the idiot will say when Man U wins all 4 titles
but only lose 1 SINGLE game to liverpool..
pls lo... if the players and members themsleves
have shown dislike for him
just how thick can his skin get?
i heard frm dad that his country once place a special bet for him
(as in really like betting football that type)
when will he be sacked?
the pay outs are something like if he is sack within the week, get dunno how much
so on and so forth...
i mean how irrittating can one get for ur country to wan2 place a bet on when will u get sack?
seriously.....

Ps. ( i heard something funny from my sis today:) her sku has DC (detention class), something my sis will NV go to!!, one of their punishment is to get their students to seperate beans !! As in one container will have red bean, black bean, green bean etc adn the student will to seperate them. LOL. i cant believe it:)

Cant wait to see Emi, ah Ong , Mina and wang wang tmr:)

where can i cry?

I really wish to find a place, a time, a chance

to just cry my heart out

till i am left with no voice, no tears, no space

nice

Suddenly, Everyone Is Blogging.

its like its the only way left to commune.

Weird.

But Nice:)

stupid stupid!!!

i just finish watching the 二十八届香港金像奖.
i am like What The Fuck.
the main highlights(prizes) are used to respect the eldery??
the best supporting female and best female r given to the really old ppl in the industry
i am like :"are u sure?"
but den i went to see the show abit den i think okay so maybe they might deserve it SINCE they have aledi been acting in the industry for like over 3 decades each
(thats wad they said!)
But that wasnt my main furious point
the most disappointing and fucking irritating "highlight" is (it shld be are instead)
最佳导演(best director): 许鞍华《天水围的日与夜》and
最佳编剧 (best scriptwriter): 吕筱华《天水围的日与夜》
firstly, i dun even noe how this movie got so much professional recognition
the show is mostly talking all about the average hongkonger lifestyle
and like that u get awarded with the best script?
den where do those really talented ppl with astounding story writing abilties stand? (like 叶问 & 保持通话 & 画皮... etc)
the worst thing: their thank you speeches!!!!!!!!!
its really sickening .. its like they have zero social skills
they shld be really glad they arent some really famous ppl
otherwise they are really gonna get bombarded like crazy!:(
here are the main pt (of which i am so frus with) of their thank you speech:
(best scriptwriter): 吕筱华 - 谢谢许导演，一开始告诉我他拍这个故事，我真的不知道他搞什么，我想应该不好看的。但是我写这个故事也不知道为什么。
( thank you director, at first when he told me to he wish to enact this story , i am like wad is he thinking, i don't think its going to be good. But i myself, have also no idea why did i write this story)
waaaaa, where on earth is there somebody who speaks like that on such a highly regarded event? its like u are not even showing respect for the event and the award you are getting!
so why on earth does she deserve it???

(best director): 许鞍华 - 自己年轻的时候盼望获得国际大奖，如今自己年纪大, 现在感觉在“自己家里”获奖更值得高兴。
(when i was young, i have always hope to have recogniton overseas, but now i've aged hence i feel it is equally as happy and rewarding to recieve "home" recognition.)
i am like, you as a highly regarded director at home cannot come up with a speech that shows more respect for this highly regarded event and especially, yourself?

i seriously BUAY TAHAN these ppl... zero EQ.

Bahhhh.

the food guru~*

lol. everyone knows i LOVE food:)

"if i don't love food, i don't swallow" haha.. quoted from Ratatouille:)

yesss... i really like to eat... i dun tink we shld ever deprive ourselves of the world's best creations:)

im gonna show u some of the foodie pics from my fav hotel cafe, fav cake shop &etc:)

my Dessert selection (most recent) from Spice Brasserie:)

my Sis Dessert selection (most recent) from Spice Brasserie:)

my Sis Dessert selection (previous)

my Dessert selection (previous)

one of Pizza hut's best creations the CNY one with the ba gua and cheese ingot!

unique mango salmon sushi from Ryochi jap restuarant @ marina:) OiShii

the tempura ramen is pretty gd too!

Swensens' banana split ( gd old icecream)& the rainbow creation(part of the price goes to donations):)

my mum's fav: Mango delight from Secret Recipe

my choice (previous) : Tiramisu

my Sis choice : but i cant rmb what name isit..heex ..i'll try to find out

my dad's : mocha walnut

This one is from Pizza hut la:) i love the M&Ms.. heex


this one of my fav coffee from Old Town Coffee House

these drinks from Fish&Co. are Great! try them!!

lol. im a promoter:)

its a wonderful day....

im seriously doin ok tryin my best to resurrect my life's schedule... i dont really like the direction my life is taking now.. im gonna change... (wads with that look?!.. i will ok...)
i started by meeting my two besties (ky and yt) at 12! it was suppose to be at 1130... i think yt and ky expected my to be late... so their estimation is super correct...
it was such a freaking long time since the 3 of us get to spend time with each other like this... i really love it... i want more of it!!lol. if im not careful i might be next to get addicted to starbucks as well.... haha... the ambience's fab... we set there from noon all the way till bout 6 i think... with just 2 drinks:>... and ta paos from kfc... thk gdness yt's a reg... otherwise it think we've been thrown out the door!.. we just kept on talking talking talking nnnoooonnn-stop....haha... like some bunch of eldery houseworked women... buay tahan otherselves man....LOL... i think arh the ppl ard each us really also cant stand our constant chatter.. there's this fucking women that kept staring at us...go to hell!...
haha.. and guess who's my surprise visitor of the day?
*drum roll pls*.... EMiLy!!
yeaaah! i haven seen for like a loooong timee...
i was like guessing at the display window whether is it her (cause she got a realy fab new hair-over...Paisei la... i scared i see wrong person ma..)
haha..Missed You:)
made a super short trip to Suntec's Cotton On cos i really wanted to get that cheap cardi for my sis... i ONLY love Cotton On for their SALES.... lol.... their clothes are actually so cheap... i cant bare to buy them at their first pricing la...the thing is i cldnt find it!*shake head* pekchek..
now why did i say super short trip? cos i forgot abt the time Again.
had to rush .... dad was screaming at me with smses... my stupid ringing tone!,...
i went past emi's shop but i din see her i tot she went home liao...
now, den i am aware of that fucking customer who scolded her so badly until she cried...
really WTF... even though in the cust ser sector.. customers is always right. BUT it doesnt mean and provide you with the authority to verbally abuse others OK? its just a mistake who dare to say they haven made them b4? So Shut the Fuck up ok u stupid cust!...
Jia You EMi!!! dont cry for such social idiots...they're arent worth it.
now i get so carried away...
lol... anyways the bottom line is today was a day well spent:)
LOve You All!!!

Japanese Fake SweetCakes!!

omigod.. i was just browsing thru youtube when i came across fantastic handphone cover designs..

they are freaking Kawaii!

i just nead to know where on earth can i get the "Cream"

and i can create amazing pieces!

anyone who knows pls pls pls let me noe immediately:)

I love these Donuts!

can u imagine that they arent real? they look freaking good enuff to eat:)

there isnt just one road

life IS amazing
nobody is capable of being stubborn through out their entire life
i know what i love to do in life
but nothing is for sure
so we just have to keep our eyes, heart and soul open
you never know
there isnt just that one single road
to Your Heaven.

Future in Casino?

hmm. i feel the need to rethink my future status.

i know (Deeeeep down) that utimately, i wan my future to be in theFashion industry

the REAL question is: HOW?

its hopeless to expect my parents to support me financially

(Difficult for my mum to even encourage me mentally)

the Fashion world is an expensive one

with my current status

its gona be real HARD

money doesnt fall from the sky

i Don noe if i am just pure lucky or that the heavens are really keen on my case to help me

i wen to the so called Job Fair at the national library with Huiz

i happen to come across the International Club Games training centre (ICG)

(wad really captured my attention are the designated salaries for the future postions)

everyone is aware of the IR opening soon in S'pore

but the average person out there i am sure is not yet aware of the oppurtunites brewing in there

i see these as the very change that i need now

the ICG provides the very (trained ) personnel(s) that these Casinos in the world require

i know

its abit weird in a sense to expect Casinos to bloom evrywhre

but it is evident that soon every where in the world will have casinos ( and they will be legal won't they? everybody wans a share of the pie...)

who doesnt like to bet

who shoves Money aside?

LOl.

i think i will be in the industry soon enough

And, i might add, that i will be

one of the few youngest personnel to start out in the industry

i can feel somethings brewing in my future

but as for now i still cant figure it out. Yet.

爱的发声练习电影

我看了爱的发声练习电影后 , 我发现我其实有一点羡慕 大 S 的 角色. 女人若 能够在一生中遇到 一次真爱以经可以说是很幸福了. 她 居然 在她的人生中遇到爱3次.

我, 不懂.

我不知道我到底在期待什么东西, 可以等待什么人.
像大S 剧中所问的; 什 么 是 爱?

i really cannot understand her... are you sure she's my mum?...

woo. i've been thinking from young, am i the wrong baby that they pick up at the hospital?
if it wasnt for a fact that i look so alike my sis i'll have probably went off to search for my actual parents
my mum simply doesnt know anything
she sees something not to her liking she only knows how to scream
but she doesnt do anything
i really mean it
she only noes how to use her mouth to scold me
but she doesnt make the effort to try and find out more
or understand more
she only knows how to push my father to follow up to discuss and talk with me
why the bloody hell cant she do it
is it really that difficult?
if its really that difficult den why does she even bother to give birth to us?
i really cannot comphrehend
i am at a point in my life whereby i can have the liberty to think indepth
before making any hasty decisions with regards to my life
my dad and sis understands that i will jump out of this dead period in my life soon
even they noe that i myself hate my current dragged situation
so WHY CANT SHE?
i really shant be bothered with her
until now she dosent even noe wats wrong with herself
she ask questions but she doesnt bother to find out the answers
so why bother to relate to her?
i shall work even harder to find MY Answers
along with the support from my Dad and the encouragement from my sis
as for the remaining fella
who cares.
i wont shed another tear for HER.