The (Bloody) Big Picture

i m getting really sick of the big picture
i hate it now
my mum is ridiculous
i dunno how we can get into a fuckin stupid fight
over my hair
it was really childish
i know the way i answered her wasnt really polite
but the question itself was stupid
i was gg to wash my hair anyway
so wads wrong was twisting it in plaids for a short while?
i cant comphrehend
and now she's still not tokin to me
wad am i like suppose to do?
honestly, i do not tink i was in the wrong
but i really do not need a period of civil war at home right now
esp wen feelings of discontent are brewin within me
i dun wan those feelins i experience 2 years ago to ever come back
they are disgusting feelings
but she's makin it have a comeback
im tired of these kind of childishness in a parent
once in a while, its cute for a parent to throw childish behaviour ard
cos it helps to bond the family
but tad much?>? i tink not.
so anyway, i was again tinking of the idiotic big picture
so i damn begrudingly sent an apology sms to her.
and obviously, she wldnt reply
but i din expect her to come home and still haven got over it
its frigging discomfortin
im at a busy period of my life now
makin the dresses before prom
studying hard for the finals
tryin to find a part time
im like workin hard for my own life now...
i dun wan for this kind of silly actions to appear in my house
haiz
really, how do i get her to understand?
tad we are no longer young,
these kind of so call punishment is only applicable for years 12 and below.
im not gg to give in anymore
i wun speak to her, unless she opens her mouth first
im like so not in the wrong
who ask her to start this whole thing first
even my sis agrees with me that its childish
sis will nt be able to understand now
cosi dun tink she will be gg down the same route as me
but i feel, as sis gets older, she'll comphrehend that certain matters
its not that if u dun travel there, u wun meet it
these issues will come to u in some form or another.
cos now she getting the same things/words/actions from mum, as i did weni was her age.
see.?
and sis is giving her my reactions. Lol. no wonder we are sisters
i came to a realisation last night
we used to say our family is close knitted
(some of ya wld know why we're knitted:>)
but actually, i feel my family is United & Loyal to each other.
BUT, not Close.
its depressing. to have to realise this now.

and the results are.....

i got my dealership results today.
and the results are...
i Got all A's!!!!
Woo-hoo!
YAYS to the max!
damn shiok!
hahhhahaha...okokok (calm down calm down!)
so far so good yup
now having supervisory course... lecs are really killin' me
i cant stand jus sittin there and listen
i know rickie is doin his best to liven up the lesson...
but i really hor, i cannot take jus mono-lessons....
so sorry la

ok and another piece of good news, ppl!
i jus recieve an email frm Fr3B that i have won a hamper as i am selected for ACNES blogger campaign of the year!
double Woo Hoos!
haha... damn cool
i din expect to get it:)

so ladies! do click on the link above to get ur free membership from FR3B
there's lotsa of products to sample there!
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its really easy! so fo try it soon ya?

hahaha.. wad a wonderful day today!

wad a great way to start the weekend!
and another plus point: i finish creatin my very own Mannequin !
its not professional lookin' but its totally mine!( it looks architectural though)
will post up pics of it nex time :)


~great life great friends great future

Dior Oui Ring!!!

wen i was studyin (almost done!), i came across this super lovely ring Jeanine posted on her blog :bamboopandalove.wordpress.com

the Dior Oui Ring!

i really love it!!! to bits!!!

i dun tink i can ever get it

so i jus wen to make one out of sliver wires...

lol... its so diff from the original...

but u know , cant have my cake and eat it too right?

jus gotta settle for second best!

lol

tell me how u guys find it ya?

loves~

ps. thanks to jeanine for finding out this ring!:)

hectic week..

ok im goona update this wk's event:)
it will be li li la la, cos i cant rmb everything la!:)
haha..

ICGpeeps came back from genting/KL trip on moday:)
haha. i msg sam but den she told me the guys too shacked
so they goona cancel the trip to sentosa!
and oh my!
jus the 3 days, a whole lota scandals/gossips came abt*wink
the most shockin one was with K and D
i really depise D
he's a total shit with a capital S
he's gt a girl back home
and yet he had to make out with K( who happens to be classmate?!)
damn disgusting...
nvm im not goona say anymore bout the issue
cos i do still take K as a fren as well
so, let's see how things go from here.

So while the guys travel back to home
i was out the whole day with my "clients'
my sis is really my fortune girl:)lol
2 fo her frens wanna get their prom piece
with a unique design and custom to their size
within a budget:)
and its within my ability so i got the deal!
monday was spent enhancing, discussing and finalising designs
cos after that they goona concentrate on their "O"s
after that we went to spotlight to get the precious materials!!
its freaking tiring and it isnt easy money,but like i said: im lovin it lots!!
went home and watch project runway
only den i realise i really require a mannequin
but i cant afford a proper one so as usual, i cant get it, i make it
so now i have a hanger-made mannequin at home!
real proud of it ya!

tues was back to sku - supervisory classes start officially
so it means the class splits and almond's officially now on part time
really do miss him
haiz, and der's obviously somethings gg on btwn him and E
cant help, feelin useless
and eric's not gg to continue and he's not even gg to be our colleague
he's furtherin his career in engineering
i do feel its a smarter move careerwise
but poor vi, haiz
at least we can all come out at times to meet up:)

wed and tue class were B.O.R.I.N.G
only those periods whereby i had to calculate den it was interesting
its similar to accounting but so much more related
took measurements for jane on tues cos i forgot to bring my measuring tape on mon
and ended up spending lots on lunch, damn it, i must learn how to control my spending

thurs- nth much/cant rmb:)
fri was a seriously hectic day
had to meet yt for movie @ 12 (kana scolded by her for being late, again.. sorrry dearie!)
den at 3 rush back to sku to help out at grad ceremony
tot i cld make it in time to help the girls with the tying of ribbons
but unfortunately couldnt paisei!!
took lotsa fotos, seen lotsa of fotos taken as well!
but the food was okokok... normal but too little!
not enuff to go round for the guests!
and wine turned into fruit punch!lol.
luckily carmen din go:)
den after dat i had to rush to meet emi mina manlin for dinner@ vivo
damn fumed at the clementi bus driver
how can u slp in the bus that is on at the same time and at the designated pick up stand!
made SOOO many ppl wait for the fucker to get up
yt say maybe he tired oversleep
if ur really tired, go to the designated area to rest den
dun put our lives in danger and make us fumin'. damn him
mina and manlin say i keep scoldin ppl on my blog
maybe one day will scold them...hAHAH
i will nv haveto scold my peeps on my blog one lo!
they're too good!*winks*
laugh like crazy with them at the rooftop!
had my first "clubbin experience" with them at a 'club' called 'The Lampost" @level3\
*rolls ard with laughter*
met M's new girl:) i have to say, although its goona sound so bad, she's so much better then the previous. alrightie, full stop.

sat- manage to get the measurement from yanru:) can start work on hers now!
damn excited!

sun- bazaar day!
haha i manage to get up like super early!
was perpared to get out of bed @745 cos carmen say she pickin me up at 830
jsu wen i get up on my bed i recieve her msg say pick me up at 930 instead
i was sooo happy can get another 45 mins more sleep
den at 8 something she msg me again saying 1030 instead
lol!!!
we are too similar:)
but i said earlier so manage to reach therr(big splash ) @ 10 20:)
business was poor
the traffic is miserable and the ppl bargin like fuckin crazy
so i din make much at all
but at least can cover cost and still get a positive
poor carmen, i tink she made a lost this time
left at 3, cos really dun wanna waste them there under the fuckin sweltering weather!
i dun wan a tan!
at the bazaar, i brainstorm that why nt i be the flea organiser instead?
well, i gotta think properly abt this.
den at dinner, almond, msg me, saying they goona meet up for dinner @ where u noe?
east coast @ my bazaar space there the Carl's junior
haiz, perhaps if i stayed as plan, i might be havin dinner with them instead:)
lol its jus fated. cos i gotta enjoy a real good dinner wiht my fam instead@ Grandma's restuarant!
i strongly recommened this place @ united Sq !
the food is FAB! esp for those who loves spicy food!
goona drag mina emi and manlin there one day!

yuppies!!!!
im finally done!!!
damn ass tired
tink im goona drop dead.
lol
ciao!

my Jimmy Choo inspired caged Zip heels hs officially arrived home.

i TOTALLY LOVE IT

im gonna wear it tmr

~*~

my peeps @ ICG are setting off for Genting tonight

though jealous, i seriously wish them safe and happyness:)

hopefully, they'll bring me back a pressie!!

LOL...

The Real You (Me).

"The truth is, you already are aware of yourself and who you are. You've come to terms with yourself and have been through almost everything. You live, love, and cherish. You've already shown everyone your true colors. Your life is complete. Nothing hold you back. You've lived with regrets, anger, hurt, despair, light dark, and everything in between. However, these things won't stop you. Keep living on. You find beauty in yourself and others. You are prone to changing. You let your emotions out and keep them that way. Everyone admires you for your loyalty and trustworthiness. You are a truly unique and one in your own. "

Thank You.:)


p.s jus change my hairstyle, will upload fotos soon:)

Wheew... wad a 2 weeks!

lets start from last fri:)
got to know of a dealing job from joyce
the organiser's Jack Daniels
those who drink hard liquor will know abt it:)
we (christ eve & i) are suppose to deal BJ
i tot it wld be the casino type
but to my disappointment, they wanted new year BJ
the place was like in an lounge
no offense Joyce- i tot it was suppose to be a restuarant
communcication break down
haiz
i was attracted by the pay
15 bucks an hour!!!
can u believe
i had to try ya'know!
haha
but i've decided
i wun be gg back
its an experience no matter wad
im that kind who mus try it out first
before i die heart la!
lol

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sunday wen into Msia
watch turning pt
O.M.G
i have a new husband now!!
laughing gor is SOOOO handsome!
so charming
i gladly die havin known and fall in love with such a guy
love that makes it worthy to die for:)

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just finish the training schedule for BJ
so today jus finish the exam
easy like hell
there's like repeat questions!?
thrice u know
sometimes i wonder whether they put effort in setting up the paper
okok
i know its nt fair
how does one com up with a paper for modules like gambling?
haha
damn FED UP with bony today
bloody irritating lo
i was doin chip change
i was suppose to announce :chip change 2000
i am saying :chip change..
that idiot stop me and say: u didnt say chip change 2000
i told him: i am abt to say it!
(u are the idiot to stop me!)
wa lao
i use to tink that he was a better trainer
becos he's more xi xin
but now i realise he is too xi xin
until the extent that he tends to overdo things
he wldnt give u the oppurtunity to finish doin things before he corrects u
as u do, he stops u, den u get thrown off track, u get lost,
den u try hard to get back on track, once ur on track continuing,
suddenly he stops u AGAIN, the circle continues
u wldnt learn anything den
ur train of tot keeps gettin cut off
at the end u don really know where u gt off track.
wth
he's so tempermental too
very much like a women, no worse:)
lol buay tahan
pray hard i dun meet him at work la:)

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today had those last min dinner and KTV with my peeps
lol
damn lovin' it man
haha laugh like crazy in joyce's car with vi and eric
hahaha
still feel like laughing thinking abt it
( turn right! while signalin left!)
hahah
the katong KTV's really v.f.m (value for money)
nex time lets go ther k, me other dearies!
its only 55 for 4 hours!
there's no food though
but nvm ma
we can bring our own in (secretly)
hahah
we 7 person go sing leh!
imagine how much we save!
hahaha
i got to sing bleedin love!
damn happy!
my voice now gt trained to 8 octaves higher i tink
lol
really glad i "risk" my life to go dinning with them!
love ya all

~*~
CIAO`

why why why?

Seeing them tgt ignites my self pity again
and wen self pity gets too much
it crosses over to jealousy
i really dun like it
i dun understand
how can one person conduct so many contradicting emotions?
its making me confuse
i know i shld be glad
but at the same time, i felt jealous
Arrrrgh!
this is such an ugly feeling
i dun need it
i dun wan it

but i still wonder: why nt me?