flowers, scents, dew, kisses

i realised wen i say i wanna give up
im actually wanting to see if anyone will tell me not to give up
now, i actually comphrehend how edmund felt the other time
now i truly understand
lol
i sound ridiculous right?
but thats the truth
and im no longer afraid to say it
this is who i am
why do i wish to hide it?
and the fact remains that i still have hope in my heart
lol
kudos to myself today
i actually managed to avoid all contact (eye or physical)
with HTG
i was tryin so hard
but i think im gg to be normal tmr
lol as if
plus the fact that i know that he is sick
i almost gave in to temptation to msg him
i really wanted to eh
but in the end i miss the time
cos i know he's bound to slp aledi
haiz...silly silly me
what i need to do
is not to forget him
but
to face myself UPFront and Directly
thats why even though i told myself to give up
deep down i still ........

like i said, Silly Me