LIFE IS ALREADY SUCH A PAIN.

WHY DOES SHE HAS TO ADD TO OUR MISERY?

FUCK FUCK FUCK.

M.O.T.H.E.R

wad does the word "mother" means to u?
leave comments, im pretty much curious
becos i wanna know isit jus me who expects that lot or its universal

i seriously dun noe how this CNY is gg to be a good one
unless she wakes up
i think its really big mistake for her to switch to the current company
she brings home all the office polictics mentality
wen my sis jus say something
and its nt even to help me
and my dad tells her to calm down
she thinks the family is ganging up against her
omg
this is so Laughable
she aledi like 50
but she thinks with a mental of 5
"ganging up"?! thats such childish thinking
perhaps she jus prove the pt that
the elderly are actually jus kids
im so tired of all this
its like a monthly event nowadays
worse this time
i cant stand the way she's tokin to my sis
if u wanna show concern
show it properly
dun use that kind of attitude
its fuckin hell eating at me
i really have no intention of apologisin at all
im not even in the wrong
i simply wanted to have supper with my frens
and for goodness sake
wad is Wrong with staying out till 2
i aledi dun go out to drink till 5 or wad
i barely much social night life
and blame it on my personality ok?
i like freedom and ability to handle it myself
i cant wait till im 25
i will no matter wad move out
seriously ppl tell me
wad is wrong with wanting to hang out late at night with frens
pls leave me comments
i feel like im abt to burst
wen ed cam to pick up stuff from me yesterday
i wanted to jus go off with him to meet my peeps
and nv turn back
its killin me
she says she doesnt like this habit
says dun understand and wun alllow it
fuck.
wad is there to dun allow
wad am i to her
a toy or pet
i need to get workin
im gg to throw everything i have in on the interview i have with MBS on the 9th
i die also mus get it
and i wanna work shifts
esp night / late night ones
den i wldnt have to see her
pls dun let me be in the same room with her
i jus might kill her
im for real
or i'll jus go commit suicide( since its really such an appealin idea now

jus a afterthought, she keeps blaming all this on me having gone to poly instead of jc
and having gone to ICG
i think perhaps she jus looks down on me?....
haha... its such a saddening tot...
ur own mother looks down on u....
ha.

perhaps things have jus started to look slightly better
i still got to change my sleepin habits (otherwise i wldnt be typing this entry at 245am)
MBS has finally given me The Cal
the ironic part is
i have been callin them 4 5 times today
wen i finally gave up
they called
i was like Woo hoo to my sis
hahaha...
and the best part
ky and I might jus be business parners:)
we 've got to have things figured out:)
cant wait to work with her:)
pplp u shld be looking forward to jetaime_closet.livejournal.com soon:)
by the end of this week
i'll have the NY collection up!
but it wldnt includ ky's products yet
Pls do look forward to them!

~Ciao*

ITS DRIVING ME NUTS.
IM SUPER JUMPY THESE DAYS
ANY RING FROM MY PHONE
I WILL LITERALLY LIGHT UP
ONLY TO HAVE MY HOPES DEFLATE
IMMEDIATELY
I HATE THIS FEELING...!!!!!

some ppl jus dun grow up

i really really shldnt have wen to look ard FB
den i wldnt have come across this nonsense
i simply cant ignore the statement: ppl still make decisions that they will regret juz so that can prove me wrong.
oh for goodness sake.
i din wan to bring this up to hurt my frens again
(perhaps some are still his frens, i apologise to ya first.)
but i simply wish to berate this idiot
jus get some anger off my chest.
sometimes, i jus wish we had nv known him
how cld someone change so much
or isit simply that we have nv known him?
how isit that a guy like him can be so childish....
tsk x 10
sometimes i wish that ....
haiz... dun wish to say it.
it brings bad karma to suggest wad i had been thinkin
cos it might jus happen to him...
well, lets jus see.
sometimes, Things, jus might come true....

there are times i fear for my mind
wen it tinks too much
wad will happen of it
i can see so much things to happen
yet i cant find my way there
and im worried sick for my part here
wad do i do?
i cant tell. Yet
but my mind jus cant stop tinking.

WHY DOESNT MBS CAL ME?
IM WORRIED TO THE CORE.

my sis really did my family so proud.
she scored a total of 7 points for her O's
i was uber proud of her
now those idiot relatives of ours can keep their bloody mouths shut
words simply cant express my gratiude towards my sis
(plus pt: her fren is one of the 2 top students in her sku):>:>
but now there's another prob
the choosing of her nex education
she has 3 choices
HCI, NJ, RJ
i guess i shld let u guys know first that i actually do not have a good impression of RJ at all
it is no doubt that they are indeed where the cream of the crop are
facilities are one of the best too
it is the ppl who come out of there after the 2 years
i do not believe that all of them are like that
but in my opinon, i feel the majority are
i find that they become ppl who have so much IQ but minimal EQ
sighs
seriously
its an honour for my sis to be able to have grades which qualify her for RJ
its an indication of her abilities
but
i really find it so difficult for me to except that she is giving slight consideration to RJ
now that she has attended their open house
i know that ultimately
i shldnt and cannot obstruct her decisions
since she is given the ability and freedom to choose
but words simply cant express how much dislike i have for RJ
this is jus my opinon, if anyone who reads these thinks otherwise then jus pls go away
i cant stand the way the students carry themselves and the way they interact with others after they graduted
so wad if u are smart? so wad if u are so damn bloody intelligent and knowlegdeable?
it jus doesnt give u the right to look down upon others
the feelin is jus despicable
can u imagine how i wld feel if my sis comes home one day in RJ uni?
how am i to bring myself to face her?
how am i gg to communicate with her?
i really do not wish to tell her all these.
cause i know it will really affect her decisions and our sisterhood
why on earth does RJ have to exist in the first place.

S>I>G>H>S

i jus gotta pray real hard she gets into HCI
i mean how hard can it get wen she has a raw score 7(haven minus the other points yet)?

days.

most times
its isnt tad good to have such accurate sixth sense
some things i really wish it wldnt jus suddenly dawn on me
and the worse?
is tad i cant believe in some small part of me
im still thinking of u.
its sickening
its useless to say i got over it
useless to say i needa to go out and meet more ppl
feelings simply do not jus go off
i really needa wake up and face it all

~*~
is this like the season of breakups/fights/unhappiness?
is this gonna be a routine or wad
there's so many incidents
i jus wish people ard me can be happy
sighs,
i worry so much
i guess i really shld get started with my new jewellery collection
i dun really know if ppl will buy
but i jus wanna create this cute lil stuffs
that will def make me happier:)

~*~
i jus hope that all my loves will be able to get thru this period of their lives
love u all:)